Sad Post

Hi all my Prims,
I wasn't going to post this because we are very private people but I feel I need too. I have had a lump in my right breast for over a year and a half and it has been growing and every 6 months I go for an ultra-sound and in the shower I felt the lump for myself and  I broke down and cried. My husband said that's it because he felt it as well, call Dana-Farber in Boston and make an appt. which is Nov 9th. The Doctor did get my films and he called me and told me that it does need to be removed and he couldn't believe that my Doctor didn't order an MRI, so that day my husband will be coming with me and the doctor is going to check me and I will be having an MRI and then he said we will be setting a day for surgery because he is removing it. He prepared me on the phone and I really didn't want to hear what he was saying but he said from what he saw on my film and the growth it doesn't look good, but we are going to take one step at a time. My Doctor has been doing this for 40 yrs. and he is such a gentle man and I feel safe with him.
We have Blue cross Blue shield so we have great health insurance.I am asking all my prim friends to be praying for my family and me. We haven't told our sons yet until our appt. and MRI is done and then we will let them now.My breast is sore and the nipple I noticed has a little dent, but I believe in the Lord and the power of prayer and we are praying that the utcome is good news. After they remove it,  they will test it that day and then he said whatever the outcome is we will take the next step. He just couldn't believe after looking at the films that my other Doctor didn't order other tests. He said I am doing the right thing. Ken is taking harder than I am. Ken said I can't live without you and that is when I lost it. The Doctor did say that if the test results come back and thre results aren't good I will need chemo, he just wants to tell me what might happen. He did say that is what he tells all of his patients so I did feel better about that statement.  We are going to Tenn., this up coming summer because we are going to build our dream home or buy our dream home..GOD WILLING.
I am trying hard to stay strong but Ken doesn't cry that easy and the only times I have seen my Hubby cry is when my MIL(MOM) passed away and on our honeymoon night but HAPPY tears. Then this happend and he did break.
My family is everything to me, my Hubby is my BEST FRIEND, MY SOUL MATE and LOVER! I am very blessed to have a wonderful, warm and loving husband and I am very blessed to have 2 wonderful sons that are doing so well in school. Like I said before our oldest is in his second year of College and is getting A's and our youngest is in 11th grade in High School and he is getting A's and  1 Bt...he want to go to the Boston of Arts.
I feel that in this day and age and we did an AWESOME job with our sons and I am proud to be their Mother. I believe that teaching your children starts at HOME, not at school, yes part of that is learning at school but we as parents teach our children about life and right and wrong and peer pressure ect..

These are the reasons that I am staying strong, my FAMILY!

I was hoping if anyone that reads my blog and has been through anything like this could you share your story with me because I feel right now I am the only one, which I know sounds very silly because that is not true.
Instead of posting as a comment you can email me at triciamcn@verizon.net
Thank you all for your support.
Till next time,
Be kind and love each other
and give those extra hugs and kisses to the
one you hold dear.

Blessings,
Tricia